Saya Pemalas!!!

since that my last observation ended like yesterday. i was all ga-ga about it. but, my aim after this is to revise everything with my ss. i want them to be ready for their final exam soon. i hope i can do it before i go off from this school.
however, now im being sangatlah pemalas until i want to cry...
attitude sungguh la nie..
refuse to start another assignment which is halfly written..terbengkalai mcm tu je...
looking forward to regain back my strength warghhhhhhhhh...
nak jerit koat2...

I'm stress before the battle really starts

im scared of the students..
the teachers..
my supervisor..
i want an A in my hand..like my other friends..
im stress out just thinking about this..
i kept thinking that i should do this and that..
but sometimes i think that i just have to get it done perfectly despite what others would say about their school...their supervisor...
stand straight...chin high...
u have not started the battle yet..so dont give up...
get all ur tools ready and show it off!!!

Destiny...

i will never know what my destiny will be:

partner in crime?
soul mate?
life?
family?

most of my friends right now are having problems with relationships...
some of them tend to break it off.others will just take it slow while finding the true strength in their relationship..well, i guess being in a relationship is complicated (like the status in facebook and friendster)..so, if ur in or out from a relationship then "its complicated" will surely be the best tagline ever..

my friend proposes that staying single as long as she could would give her the freedom that she wants.i guess its just destiny.you cant plan it because sometimes it comes naturally.
as for me, i believe that u can plan ur relationships in life but the destiny will write out how its going to be in the future.

while giving all sorts of suggestions and advices to my fellow friends, it came across me that you never actually feel that the relationship is over. you try to save it for the better. but if you try to hard and it all does not really matter, then you feel that it is an ultimate waste..and..and...u start to feel hopeless..

anyways, it all comes to the fact that destiny.....

Estimation : 3 more days to go..

i have another 3 more days before i start my new semester.yet, im still at home. im spending the last special minutes at home.
this coming sem wud be extra diferent bcoze i will start my practical..shite..
this means that i'm teaching in a real school with real corrupted students..
dang! how can i do this.geeeeezzzz.it feels so soon. i dun even have time to do some extra thinking about this.
well, like it or not...i have to face it with open arms.
i don't feel ready. who does? who have the ultimate confident in handling 30 over students in a secondary school? raise ur hands plss!!..
the one thing that stuck in my brain is that you will never feel ready if you hasitate and still refuse to try. so, y not give your self a chance and try.
you might not know the adventure ahead, aite? i don't care less about the supervisor and some of the crappy old sickening stuff..
im just going to do it...prepare my stuff...deliver..and...walla! we will c what happens..
after all, i got nuthin to loose so y bugging my head. perhaps. get ready and charge!

-end-

Lying

sometimes people lie and they lie for good. i know if im trying to lie to others, i will shiver and i dun really feel good. seriously, i feel damn bad about it. the things i said will be bugging me throughout the day until i can truly forget. maybe the next day or maybe not. depends on my internal memory.

the only lie that i feel marvelously good about is one BIG lie i have told someone. yet, i never regret telling it. i feel darn good as i can smile all the way feeling that im not a total bitch anyway. tehee~~. i think that is a great sin for me. y i dun feel bad at all as always? i dunno. i think the lie should be kept as a lie and should be delivered that way. Some people deserves to accept the lie because i believe they also have been lying to others all the way. u knoe, what goes around comes around. glad that it happen.

well, as i was saying that lies should be told to certain people that deserves it, i really meant it. not to be cruel to them but just to trigger their intention that life is like that. life is cruel and when you do to others, it will come back slightly at you in the face. a big slap at the face. so you would know how is it feel. then, you will realise that what you did is a totally unforgivable in the eyes of humanity.
after that, there goes the puppy eyes saying im sorry like they truly mean it. guess what! people lie again...they don't feel the regret. don't feel awful about it. they just wish that it will end.

that's life u know. life is cruel. life teaches you. life is sometimes a lie.

a white lie....

At home...and thinking wut 2 do..

im sitting in the living room..
idle..
i stil have not figure out wut 2 do during my sem break..

something on my mind?
1. blogging
2. tv-ing
3. reading
4. cooking course wit mak
5. sleeping + hibernating
6. ermmm....

turning a new leaf

i have decided after miles and long internal thinking...

i wanna start a new blog...fresh and clean..

i wanna be more serious in blogging...

recapturing and nurture almost all the incident happen in my life..

that's y my 1st post entitled turning a new leaf...